The Greatest

 

   I don't like departures and leavings when it comes to friendship. But as I age, one thing I have come to realize is that there is absolutely nothing wrong with people coming and eventually going in our lives because that is just a normal part of growing up.

   I used to be a little obsessed over the concept of friendship, to the extent where I would wonder why some friends had to depart from our lives at certain points in time. I would begin doubting the "true" meaning of friendship. And that was until I learned that impermanence and change is one of the basic facts of existence.

   Right now I no longer would deliberately label if someone is just a normal friend or a really good friend. A friendship is best left undefined sometimes because we will never know what is going to happen next, and we don't want to end up getting hurt by the boundaries and expectations we define for ourselves and friends. Over time we will eventually be able to tell the depth of a friendship.

   Regardless of what is going to happen, I have learned to appreciate better the bond of being together with all the friends who come into my life. I have come to slowly appreciate the "nowness" of each moment, because I know it isn't going to be forever. One day there may come a point when we have to move on and say goodbye to some of our friends too - we just never know.

   But that is okay. I guess when the time is right again, re-entering each other's lives is never an uncommon thing. And in the end, will realize that some of friends have never really left. Why, they've always been there! It's just that they are occupied with something else as they move from one chapter to another in their lives, just like how I'm doing exactly the same.

   Just want to say it's great to have you in my life. The experience with each of you has been very different, but that's only because everyone has their very unique personalities that cannot ever be replicated. :)

如果你也听说

 

【当时我们都不肯承认对方最好， 后来却一直寻找哪个人能像你这样好】

惯性

  

  惯性，是总会在特定时刻时吃上冰淇淋
  但这一刻，是长不大的 Mamee 炸鸡加啤酒 :)

路上

 别把旧时光穿在身上
 有一种亮眼是为自己倔强

 挂念是无尽昏暗
 越是想天越是不亮

 以往总以为坚持会让我们变得强大，可长大后才发现，真正让我们强大的，是放下

 洒脱努力往前走，要知道，就算是想遇见的那个好人，也会在你变得越来越好的路上，遇见

 局势，与其等待，不如主动

  

选择题

Behind a successful man there is always a woman

VS

The woman is the reflection of her man

相比之下，你会选择哪一句？

在某个时候，想让我陪的人是你

 


那天你问起  为什么对你这么好？

只是
你把未来放我身上走在一起  你是唯一这样信任我的  我又怎舍得让你输
如果
你是铅笔  那我就作空白日记
任由你涂鸦回忆  填满每一份感动笑意
要记得
你是唯一

大海

最喜欢的，有两个

一是大海

它总是用温暖的海风迎接我

不一定听得到回音，但它总让我能无止境狂喊

它总是让我把装满的空瓶子漂流到对岸，隐约中岸边有个灰色影子在低身捡着，貌似要说垃圾不能乱丢

知道你总是往高爬 

但超人也需要休息

因为喜欢的第二样

早晨的阳光

就快来啦 :)

枫炫

从春天转夏天，阳光到台风

起起伏伏经历万千变化

此时的风景，却是清晰透明

山腰间飘逸的红雨

随着东风飘零，轻轻摇风铃

唤醒心灵的声音

才知道

被冬天雪花铺盖的枫叶

还是出现

原来

缓缓的飘落枫叶是思念

自认遇见穿透了

却被愚昧与矛盾体绕圈

冷艳看着

最初期待退化成等待

循循点燃烛火取暖

静待极光掠夺

迎接个

一起体验追寻的角落

如果可以跳过

秋末能够遇见春夕

是奇迹吗

枫

不需要回报，只要能理解

= 枫 = 

淡化后的

不想等到头发白了后  才有任何遗憾
不想等到心跳放慢后  才去开辆跑车
梦想容易被遗忘
终究是痴想  还是幻想

我想环游  这个世界
去看西藏奇迹  拖着长颈鹿写日记
环游  整个世界
去看世界每一处角落

不想等到父母都老了  才后悔没时间
不想听到人说我瘦了  才又开始增肥
理想容易被忽略
终究是空想  还是幻想

我想遇见  一位天使
让我神魂颠倒  不再寻找真命天女
我会爱她  好好爱她
爱到生不如死的深度

不想每天都挂面书上  结交虚拟朋友
不想拥有一切  但却是感到空虚寂寞
真实里容易迷茫
把虚荣困在 那一道墙

我想珍惜  每一分钟
趁年轻去实现  每一件事证明自己
珍惜  每一分钟
故事才会变与众不同

不是伟大自以为  也不是想胜过于谁
只是害怕自己会  漂浮在这茫茫人海
忘了终点

淡化后的秒度  有沙漏的陪伴

可不可以有一个打气  让我感觉你真有牵动的能力

如果我声音还有温度  耳朵可不可再次听你说心情

一个capricorn 2

   

   两天前，跟一个朋友聊天时她突然说起星座。她突然问起我很多东西，当我是星座王子什么都懂。。。。拜托，其实我对星座没有研究，只是偶尔会去看看。不过经她那么一问，我才想起自己以前有把一些星座文章存在电脑里。好奇的找回那些文章，发现到其中一遍很有趣，内容真的让我啼笑皆非，但说的还真的是：百发百中

   摩羯座一定会做的事

when i became a student worker

 

   或许是因为家教不严的关系，非间接的造就了我懒惰的性格。我可以躺在沙发上一个小时什么都不做，就在那望空，可我却从来没有想过，昨天我接了2010年里的第十九份part time工。朋友很临时的找人，像是从未预料到的，但我答应她的速度，快过我小便的速度。

    十一个月里十九份工，大概一个月两份工，算多吗？我打电话告诉她，她吓着了，原来我做过的工，比她预想中的多。谁是她？不重要。。。。

    或许你会问我，为什么要打工？我会很简单的说我需要钱。怎么说？就从今年三月在没仔细考虑的情况下，马上订了到台湾的机票说起。（台湾的事会在下一篇仔细诉说）。也因为台湾一事，我真正领悟到没有什么是你办不到的，真正办不到的，是你不能让你自己动手去实践！

一个capricorn

  我是摩羯座，摩羯座是我。。。

  其实你相不相信星座？星座对我来说，只是一种娱乐。如有遇到文章的话去看看，但不会特意去找，因为真正准的并不多。

  刚刚看了一遍文章，来个简单回复，呵呵：

1）魔羯能在最短时间看出一个人的性格。他们很容易就会了解到他们身边每一个人的优缺点，但是他们通常不会说出来，也不会太介意，所有的魔羯都很包容对方请记得，如果有一只魔羯指出你的缺点那一定是友善的，虽然他们会用一种讽刺的口气来指出。

  很准咯，因为只有了解对方，友情才能长久

2）当魔羯讨厌一个人的时候那就是一种绝对，魔羯不会随便讨厌一个人，但是如果哪个人做的太过分，这个人会从魔羯心底彻底抹杀。

  可怜，到现在还没找到一个让我很讨厌的人，哈哈

3）魔羯的人都很没有安全感，他们喜欢在任何人面前装傻。这可不是一般的装傻能力，魔羯人聪明就在于这点，他们认为只有傻子才会不牵扯到任何伤害。与其做 一个聪明的人不如当一个傻子平凡而又随意。如果不是值得魔羯相信的朋友，魔羯永远不会让对方知道自己会有智慧

  以前还是小孩子的时候很会装傻，现在不会了。所以以前当有人说我blur blur时，其实我心里在偷笑 lol 

4）魔羯对朋友都很真，他们很珍惜朋友。他们最希望获得朋友的信任，如果从一个朋友那里得不到信任，他不会再与这个朋友交往下去。

  哦，难怪以前我常为了别人伤心

傻事

  法克，有时心里真的很矛盾。看着系友开开心心载着女朋友去吃饭，我却要滚回去继续上课，看着每一个在准备下星期的考试，我却在准备这拜五的表演！

  很闲～

  去看Facebook，看到摇篮手legend-ah foo做了一个生日video给一个女生。video里的他，用着吉他自弹自唱。不要以为就这样，他还真够lansi,guitar配WAH WAH。。但lansi中带有感动。呵呵。要看视频的 请按我

  记得在结束了两个月的摇篮手之夜里，他唱完原定的《温柔》后，坚持要encore多唱《寂寞的夏天》。这是他当年写给一个女生的情歌，一位已经是别人女朋友的女生。他，甚至是我们这些老乐手都知道，要在那很多人都想站上去的马大东姑礼堂舞台再唱多一首歌，简直就是要跟主办当局打战，因为后面还有重金聘请的本地歌手还没上台。

  最后他还是唱了，司仪也完全来不及反应。这可好咯，他的目地达到了，还当场下台送花给那位女生。如果说当年他创作这首歌是开场，那这晚的表演，就是闭幕曲。

一杯牛奶的假期

  哈罗各位观众，还记得我吧？很怪的花名：cloudfly是也。

  真的真的好久没有写博客了，好久好久没blog walking，好久好久没参加blogger gathering。对，我是一个废了的博客（FAILED Blogger）

  最近老是在想，应该把博客扮演成什么角色？一个给你发牢骚的地方？给你骂人的地方？给你告白的地方？博客为什么突然这么受欢迎？是不是人类为了在网络上找到一个栖息地？或是想让别人看到自己的存在感？看回我自己，我的博客曾经很悲，也曾经很商业化。悲-是因为那时的自己还不够成熟。商业-就像中文商业歌-为了钱。六月后，完成梦想去旅行，之后也没动博客了，理由很简单：想休息。

Recently

Yup,i know i had abandoned this pity blog for two weeks.I will change my blog layout and content soon.

Just back to here for awhile…..to conclude what’s happened in my life recently.

For my internship, finally, just left three more weeks then we will end our internship officially. However, this is not an ending terminal; we will continue our last academic year in university and struggle with thesis after one month holidays. Thank God that this internship provided a bird eye view on the actual process happening in the industrial line. The knowledge learned and experiences gained are beneficial for me for the coming years. However, the most important thing that I realized throughout the internship is HUMAN RELATION AND COMMUNICATION is extremely important, especially when you face with people from different background.

For my band, after UM Dayao concert, there has no any practice or jamming anymore, everyone just step back to their own position, work hard for studies, for thesis and word hard to become a so call cheap labor in factory , like me, ha. Dear drummer,weesim passed his second year medic course final exam,so he will be going to klang for his 2sem practical and get one step closer with his DOCTOR dream......erm....But when i look at him,there has totally no any smell of doctor get out from his body!like a clubbing guy more,haha. So,thats mean we need a new drummer to replace him and so fortunately,Raymee willing to join us.New line up again...good or bad??ha,don't know.

For my bass.....haha.After UM Dayao concert,i stopped practicing bass as my right middle finger is too painful. Then during March,i went to gym too frequent until totally no energy to play bass when reach my room. During April and May,something has happened,i started to feel like having no inspiration to play bass,just feel that my future in music is blur,i can't find a reason for myself to hold the bass again.I decided to take a rest for some period.But i know,being rest for too long will make me give up in music after it,so what i do is to force myself to listen to music,to attend gig,to watch friend's jamming,i know,i can't give up so easily,this is my dream since i enter uni. Similarly,i didn't find my shifu Chris for four month, before enhancing my lousy music theory, finding him is just a waste of time and money.Finally,Sim has recommend our band to perform in a upcoming charity gig,Grooves in Motion3.Yea,there is a gig in pub,I always wanting to perform in pub!Thanks to SIM so much,thanks for him willing to chat with me and encourage me,i need to motivation in this period!And what i know is: I won't give up!

For photography,i decide to put it aside. It is useless for me for just view other photographer's photo without any practical.I have no my own DSLR but once i get my salary after graduation,i will get it!

For my own....erm....i always think about my own life.Sometimes,i'm envy to my friends,or other batchmate in college.Their life is just normal and simple,everyday go for class,then take a nap when back from class,night play DOTA,dating wf gf/bf,chit chat at lobby,watching drama and download drama.I really feel strange about drama and tv programme right now,or more correctly is:i lost my interested towards them,i think it's just wasting my time when i watch it.During my idle time,i will practice on bass,band discussing and preparation,listen to many songs for reference and online search something which is useful for me.I can't differentiate which one is true and false?why i make my life so complicated?or this is good for me?Ha,but what i think is:using time to play DOTA and games,or watching drama is totally waste my time!and i won't do it.

I know,I'm going to be a 4th year student in campus soon,graduation is just around the corner.It is useful for me that i have get to know with many people,not only in college,and i got the opportunity to chat with them who are elder than me.Ya,i always concern about my future.Zhiqin praise at me that i have such kind of thought and always find better way to increase my life quality.I know,I'm a man,not woman,it is not possible for you to feed a wife in KL without RM5000 monthly salary,but right now,salary for fresh graduate(engineer) just RM2400-2600,so how?there is the question i need to think about!

Right now,i'm facing with financial problem.Damn,my laptop spoiled!!!my laptop never have problem before,but once it have problem,straight away prompt up the BIGGEST problem:motherboard!!!WTH!!!i need to buy a new laptop,no choice at all!!WTF HP,i won't buy HP anymore! got any recommendation for laptop?

Ya,laptop spoiled had ruin my own plan for this two month.I will travel Taiwan with hometown friends next month,i just want to find a new environment to refresh my mind.So I always find part time jobs to earn some pocket money for this trip.Until now,i still haven achieve my target,some of the supervisor still haven pay the salary to me!Moreover,our dearest UM bendahari just announced that every undergraduate is compulsory to clear their fees before next semester registration,aduuuui,Money shortage now!!how?i plan to cancel my Taiwan trip,at this critical period,two HEROES are appears in front of me,ZHIQIN say he will lend money for my trip,then my best hometown friend SHENG say he will be giving my some cash to sponsor me.......T.T get touched!i know,speaking by mouth and doing by hand are different,but i need to admit that i feel warm when i hear from them.Thanks!but i will settle myself.

I never feel stress for money before,this is first time,but i still keep smile in front of friends, hope that GOD will let me know the best solution after it,or worst,just cancel my Taiwan trip....ha!~

Last,if you read my sentence at here,congrats and really thank!you are survived from my broken English,you are concern about me,willing to spend your time to watch a so long post. leaving a comment to let me know that you are here!yoohoo....

Gambateh for myself!

"Nang" it if you like my post

我不会自拍

最近时间表有点空，很多时间都是在玩facebook里那些废废的游戏。其实不是我想玩，只是没办法，第三年了，人老了，总该学年轻人做点年轻人做的事情，骗自己还很年轻....lol

除了睡觉，运动，练bass,练歌，就是读书。。。。突然很想去走走。。。。

这时，缘分到了。。。

一礼拜前不小心瞄到宜典身上那件PADINI，就跑去问他，才知道MEGA SALES又来了（不是3月5月8月么？lol），哈哈，本大爷是时候出马了，最喜欢趁这种时候大扫便宜货^^。原本这周末约了朋友去bon odori看美女（其实是看烟花啦^^）,最后还是不去了。就这样，拉了tengteng（简称受害者lol）去看衣服。

其实我没打算要买，或买多少件，更重要的是，我想知道现在一些关于潮流的走势，看其他人上街时的装扮，看近期衣服的grapghic设计，看美女（这个不是重点，顺便看而已lol）。或许这能满足我对艺术和潮流的心理要求，其实已经够了。买东西对我来说，要看缘分。

一样，三角区的衣服还是一样啦啦，难怪有些朋友如果要买衣服，早就跑去kl以外的地方找了。真的，看到那些衣服，那些五颜六色，顶不顺lol...而我的目标，也只有转去那些名牌店：BODY GLOVE,BOSSONI,PADINI,FOS,GIORDANO等。最后在PADINI扫了一件衣（唯一的战利品）

lanci穿短裤出去

说到这照片。。。当时在等受害者试衣服，看到旁边有一块大镜。看着那块镜子，拿了手机想自拍，却突然发起呆来。。。。。原来我忘了怎么自拍lol。。。。

两年前在森美兰读书，生活很沉闷，而那时的娱乐只有三个：一是自拍，二是玩手机的游戏，三是跟同房废废。那时的我对自拍可是超级超级有心得，简直到了一天不自拍就会歇斯底里症发作，要进精神病院。朋友看到我都会大叹：cloud cloud啊，自恋鬼，死男生。wakaka!!!!

可是，两年后，当我再次面对镜子时，情况却不同了，我生疏了，发霉了。

原本要upload一些自己的照片上facebook,翻了整个电脑，才发现，两年来，我的自拍照少过10张，而这数目却是我两年前单单一天拍照的最少数目。。。。。lol

我不会自拍了

有一种温暖叫窝心

对，你就是有资格让我为你写一遍文章！

以前一路上无比的撞伤，无情的打击，让我真的觉得我很不适合去接触这些东西。别人适合，但是我不能够！我没自信了，我从不知道真正的温暖是什么？从不知道！又或许，我根本没资格去要求？我选择沉静，逃避。。。

那么多苦，那么多泪，我累了，我想逃，我想飞，远离这个疯狂世界，但是我却忘了原来自己没有翅膀。静下来，想想。。。我应该继续当只鸵鸟？还是选择改变思想，继续前进？

最后，我选择改变。。。。。。

温暖：昨天，真正感受到了！原来你那一丁点的动作，却可以深深刻在我心中；原来，我看到街道旁边美丽的屋子，会想起你。。。

以前的我做错了事，一个很糊涂的事。因为这件事，我几乎以为自己与你无缘了，我几乎失去了那位原本可以很要好的好朋友。现在，我对那朋友有的是愧疚感；而拥挤的人潮中，人们口中有的就是这件事，就算过了十年，这件事还是被流传。。。。对，就像痕迹，除不掉了。但你，却选择用眼睛取代耳朵去看这件事，去相信自己的直觉。。。或许很多人都在说你很傻，很天真，疯了，但你却可以不在乎！

现在，眼前有了一个看似很简单，又很不容易的挑战，你说还没开始就给了我很大的压力，要后悔来得及。我说没必要后悔，到现在我做的每件事都没有后悔过，除了那件糊涂事。因为真的有感觉，所以会去面对。。。不，是一起去面对。。。

我相信，也相信我。。。我们的明天是亮丽的！

感动

说到感动。。。突然有好多东西想说。。。

听leona lewis的《RUN》，尤其是 x factor 2008版本，之后的每一次，每一次，听了都被感动到，还是进心坎那种！或许，我已经不能用：“真的很好听”来形容这首歌。朋友都喜欢说我很感性，因为我是那种会听歌听到流泪那种@@lll但其实还好了，哈哈，活了20++年，暂时也只有和<吴克群>成功挤出我的眼泪@@lll听歌就要用心去听嘛，只有心，能领悟到其中的精髓。

那天，傻傻被UMIT publicity三个小瓜骗去，说什么要跟我拿东西，还拼命夺命连环CALL(夭寿啊，我老人家行动慢啦。。。)，结果原来是买了个happy farewall蛋糕要给我，还买了一堆“周边食物”。那时我真的不知道要怎么反应，但真的有被感动到。

那次，傻傻的为了她，浪费多少时间和金钱，被朋友误会被她骂，一直痴痴的等，还傻傻的花了两天时间当邮差，就为了送礼物。用心去寻找，完成，后期制作，包送，最后到她手上。那晚，她收到了，也哭了。。。。。原来。。。我让女生感动得哭起来的能力还存在着。

那次，发生了一件永生难忘的惨痛回忆事件，两位之前刚认识不久的朋友在我身边支持了我很久很久，而我最重视的她却完完全全把我踢得远远，不理不睬，到头才意思意思回应。我们三人从陌生到熟悉，不了解到了解，呵，那段时期真的很难忘。那一次，我流泪了。

我喜欢音乐，可是当时的我什么都不会，乐理不会乐器不会，被批评到叽里呱啦，当时，只有他，给我机会，我才有机会站在一个我以为三年后才能站上的舞台表演。我问他，为什么要我？他只说只是不想浪费位子，反正我都自己来了。感动！

同样，我喜欢音乐，要学音乐，可是没人教，又死命穷没钱，就自己学。一样，我的理解能力不是一般的差，是很差，很多东西看了很久才能懂，听了很多次才懂，要问又找不到人问，躯体上的缺陷让我学音乐时屡碰钉头。之前，连bass是什么都不懂时，就敢敢在宿舍活动表演（那时应该是被音乐系的笑得脱牙了，哈哈）；之后，有个人，敢敢收我做学生。感动！

感动与被感动，相同的是两者都是用心去感受，都是人在做。 被感动，有几次被父母，有几次被朋友，有几次被电影，有很多次被音乐，而下次的被感动，是几时呢？